This past year has been easier; yet harder, in so many ways. Many of you know that as of 11/20/08, I was officially divorced one year.
How do you explain the loss of a love, a family, dream, a history, a future? Maybe, someone more skilled in writing has the appropriate words, but I don't.
It has, undoubtedly been the MOST traumatic time of my life. You wake up one day, and the world, as you knew it, is gone. You realize that "this isn't how my life was supposed to turn out.
The kids and I have been through hell and back. I feel like I have grown so much, but I also feel like I've put back up the "walls" that only my tarnished "prince charming" could take down. I'm an exercise in contradictions lately.
I hope 2009 will bring the usual - health and happiness to all, but I also hope it brings me peace and a true "letting go" in all senses of the word.
Maybe, someday, I can share my whole story. I'm just not there yet. I'm new at this "blogging thing," so bear with me.
